chakchakchak! erm gosh! today, veryvery tiring day. ughh, today was alone in class. close friends, most of them didnt come. atika, lazy+stomach pain (-.-!) , hazirah, really sick. thaqifah was in school and she's fine. erm class today , to me, were really preety bored. not preety but very damn fvking bored. people know, people understand(: came to school erm at ten am then steped into dnt class. do a lil' bit of my stuff and off to chem lesson. very bored. no hazirah, and no hot news :D kinda moody the whole day, (that's what jesslyn said to me). erm recess, stayed in class and yarhh stare at the board. ... ... after school went for SS remedial and shocking stuff and shocked jesslyn happened. and it makes jess go WOW! farah listen to metal?! i was like give a face and .. cant i ?(: after SS, go for DNT.. andandand i finish my presentation board,(the drawing thinggy) !! feeling so heaven cox next week is the due date for N level dnt. and im done! Weeee! friend, i read your previous previous post between her and him and you. i know its all long past over. but can i just ask, what's up now? what wrong have i done that makes you didnt talk to me ? if i think im wrong, without u saying or talk things behind my back, i'll approach you and say sorry. but this matter? i dont think im in wrong again. im sick tired and restless. seriously. the smile, laughter and happy moments you see me in school, doesn't mean and shows that im happy inside too. i dont. i swear i dont. i really unsure of what people around me wants from me. what!?!!! what do you guys want!?!!? wanna call me looser, bitch or whatever, just call. i dont freaking fvking care. but makesure whatever u calling me names that dont belongs to me, u have the valid reason with you. if you dont, look yourself in mirror than judge yourself first then me. im tired and clueless of what u people want. im tired to fake all my lame jokes, my smiles , my laughter just to see people around me smiling too! ive never thought or even praise to have these things happenning to me. if u dont like anything about me, speak up. i dont need any other alternative ways even technologies nowadays are getting better. if u're true abt what u say about me then, dont be shy to speak up. i guess i have enough of all those story telling inside here. i got no other ways to speak up other than here. so long.
PS. *hugging* :D to you my boyfriend. love you !
Loved.Forever
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