confused ? any other english word i can describe this feeling when there's like too many disturbence in my mind. a day that is really tiring, and restless too. early in the morning, feeling soo giddy cant even really bring up my head. almost got a bang on the wall. but glad i realise i wasnt that awaken at that time. went to school with a grumpy face. asked mummy, can i dont go school. in other words she could say yes but.. she said in a way, do have any paper today? when u didnt go to school, so must i write a letter to your teacher? so i decide. never mind just go to school and try to bear the pain. during physical education lesson, had so much laughter with the girls. learnt new technics too from atika and jess. its cool man! and guess whatt, i didnt breakfast in school, instead went back home and sleep till 645pm. so shiok!
during lesson time, i decided to text you. sorry cant really remembered what i say. actually inside there, i wanted to say sorry to you cox the stuff happens between us yesterday night. but i dont know. with this strong hard feelings, i didnt do it.
i was waiting and kept looking at the screen hoping, the name honey would appear anytime. waited still, till im home, i know this sound like soo.. i sleep with my phone in my hand all the time. was hoping while i was sleeping you would msg me or call. i waited till before the time due for fasting of the day, a text from honey.
saying he said he's sorry for not msging me. felt like "awwwww". and he didnt msg me due to some valid reason. but i dont know. should i text him back or just repay back by ignore -ing him ? which?!! if i ignore, till when this thing going to settle. but if i reply will he reply back and wont do this thing again ? soo i kept quiet and suddenly i feel so mad at everyone even i shouted at my big brother. wth , whats wrong with you farah. mummy knows that im not in the mood , so what she could say is, asking me to be more sabar and sabar, kau kan pausa. i silent. till now i didnt reply his msg.
i geram pat you. i marah pat you. sesangat sangat. i tk tau knape i rase ni. i feel like ughggghhhh~ enta macam i terfikir like ok sabar sabar. i patut faham you dengan keadaan you mcm ni. i tetap sabar. i sabar sebab i sayang you. i sedih tau bile you tk reply msg i. mcm cinta i tk terbalas. i tak suke risau pasal orang lagi2 orang yang i sayang. it makes me feel uneasy. please you, tolong faham i jugak. i tak mengharap big things from you. but reply me when i text you. im here understanding at ur problems.i know just now u cant, but next time... please.
PS/ imissyou so much. i swear i love you too. please ~
Loved.Forever
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