Somehow, somewhat. I felt like I'm being shot with a shotgun into my heart. I can't bear to take this pain, agony and the frustrations I'm going through. True, I didn't contact my girlfriend now. As for a good reason. I can't post here as it's between me and her and no one should know. As for the main thing, it's for her and our own good. I live in despair. My home is no longer a home. Shoutings, fightings and even hands could move in this house between me, my brothers and my parents. I don't find these house a good place to stay. Each time after break fast, I go out. Heads to Bukit Panjang and hang around with Syonantos. I seek help. I seek peace. But I can't find it anywhere. I'm still frustrated over 1 thing. I'm still not through with Ibu. Syonan's "stepmom". Urgh. I'm lazy to tell it here. It's between me and Syonantos. Sorry. Each time in the morning, waking up at 4.30 a.m, hoping to start a good "breakfast" to start fasting. In the end, it always end up into an arguments in the early morning. Today, I and my small brother ended up taking our meal into our room and lock the door to eat peacefully. Though the doors are lock, arguments kept carried on even we moved away from the arguments hoping it would end. Just now, breaking fast, again, instead of bringing my meal, I only ate a piece of bread with nutella and a cup of kathira and I'm out. Avoiding the arguments started by my parents. My small brother, with anger he control himself, eating at the dining table, making himself deaf just to satisfy his hunger. I don't know what's wrong with my parents, especially my dad. Haix. I felt like running away. But all that, it's stupid. I'm old enough. Old enough to think. I just had to wait till I'm 18, which is few more months and I can go away from them. Living with a friend whom willingly to accept me living with him and his family. I hope, I do not need to bring my meal into my room again tomorrow. God Bless My Family and Hope He Will Point Them The Right Direction In This Month Of Ramadhan.
P.S: We're still together bby. I'm not letting u go. I need to calm myself and let all this simmer down in order for me to come back to u. Understand, please. Ily and Imy. Take care of yourself. Remember what I told u.
Loved.Forever
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