Friday, October 16, 2009
yesterday night, really cant sleep because of aunt's nescafe. really KAU one laa. haha. damn Dut was like a pompuan mengade-ngade mannn. haix. only god knows who am i referring to and whats talking about in my mind. *wink not to be bad but im already bad, and samore she made me more bad to talk bad about her. so how can i stop myself then ?... ok cut that crap. after that, went home and rest. wanting to sleep from 2.30 but cant try to turn left and right still.hiax. manage to sleep at around 5plus and that was like extremely late. freak! im sleepy~ haha. while the hours i cant sleep , i did close my eyes and try hard hard enough to sleep , i did, (yesza!) but just for a while. (sigh!) i dreamt. not a wet one *wink, but about two family suddenly gathered together eat at macdonald and like have fun and they became so close. ok this is a total random for me to talk and in the first place to dream about it. haha. its ur family and mine. it started when we both went out to park, seriously nice park with beautiful trees, flowers annd scenery. seriously. was holding hands walking , ur mum called ur phone and ask, are we hungry. and u said no. cox we have just eaten our lunch together. and ur mum said, nevermind just wait for us at there, we will fetch u both. half an hour later, they arrieved and inside that car theres, ur lil bro, mum and dad. we headed to clementi. what i thought we all are going to eat at restorant that like cuisine or something but instead its macdonald. ok lah something. then while seating around talking, my family cme by, and seat togehter. i was smilling wide till reaches my ear. i was too happy till when everyone ordering and eating, i never yet ordered mine. -.-! ok till here my story was cut off. another story after i awaken , i sleep back. and i dream abt ur mum and me , including you was like hanging around at ur living room talking. like nobody business. nothing happend! great kan. how i wish all that would come true. insya'allah.
gosh~ only god know what im thinking now. and why should i behave this way. how i wish i could get out from this situation and settle down. sit at a corner and be silent, making myself mute. something keep bothering me. ive like keep imagining about parents meet with another parents. hah! crappp~
a mountain always have the ups and down but it never break apart unless an earthquake struck, a promise shouldn't be break unless ...
god, please save me from all those thoughts. ive not been myself since yesterday.
this is the only place i could shout out loud and be truth to myself. shhow me the path that leads to what i wish ... please god.
PS; mute :X
Dead & gone. || 8:55 PM
